Parts 1 & 2 & 3

so for the sake of my very-not-diplomatic friend... i shall give an update of my 'life... or lack of'

work, eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep

(in increasing order of importance)

multiplied by seven

and to be multiplied by a million more weeks.

There, you got an update of my life this week, a recap of what happened last week, and a preview of my life in the subsequent weeks, succinctly packed into four lines. *beams*

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Here is part 2 of the agenda of this entry...

I was thinking, yet again, about how bizarre the world is. And how scary it is to live in a world where nothing is permanent, where no theory holds true for long, where no relationship is permanent. And that I can do nothing about it. And my pea brain simply cannot process the tumult of new information. It is like each time you think you are standing on firm ground, you realize, much to your dismay, that you are standing on quicksand. Then you struggle to pull yourself out to what seemed like firmer grounds, only to realize that you have misjudged. Logic and reason are like archaic ideas of the long forgotten past. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN, why care about them?

I remember having this nightmare where I woke up one morning and went to my parents' room where they asked "who are you?" -PANIC DESCEND-

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ok part 3 and the last part...

I want to clarify something. Contrary to my heavy-hearted blog entries, I think and feel I am a generally happy person. I may sound like a grumpy 45 year old divorcee facing midlife crisis but I am not! I think a lot, seriously A LOT, sometimes too much for my own good. Afterall, what I get is only sleepless nights. But I cannot really do anything else when my thoughts run wild but to run after them.

But don't worry. I have an optimistic outlook towards life. I am positive that the future holds infinite possiblities if I seize the right opportunities. And I am really grateful for my circle of support - my family and friends, including the *ahem* not-so-tactful ones haha.